...or is it?
Each
week, as my regular readers will know, I receive through the post my copy of
the Guardian Weekly. I keep it with me wherever I am so that I can gradually read
it before the next one arrives. During the week the paper is in my bag, in my
bed, on the balcony, on the bus, or on the tram. I even read it sometimes while
walking along the street and I have been known to read it in the interval at
the theatre, but only when alone, of course.
I usually
turn first to the crossword and the Sudoku (but only if it is a hard one). I return to the crossword
later to complete the last few squares as I rarely finish it at the first
attempt.
The Sudoku
is a different matter. I usually finish that in one go or do half before
falling asleep and the rest when I wake up.
At the
beginning of this week I sat on my balcony with the crossword in front of me
two or three times, but it squares remained empty, my mind a blank. I whizzed
through the Sudoku but, with all but two squares to fill in, I realised that I had
made a mistake. I rubbed it all out and put it on one side for a second attempt
later.
I have
had very little physical Conductive Education work to do this week. Some tidying up before the
summer break at work, a few hours of sessions with adults, and I have had time
for a few gentle walks through the city. I have, however, done quite a lot of
thinking about Conductive Education this week, a lot of writing and planning, some translation for
the Congress, and lots of writing for my book, poster and two presentations, also for the Congress.
It was
English thinking, English writing, English translating that I was doing, as I was alone I even did the tidying
up with English thoughts in my head.
Today I
sat down for breakfast in the sunshine on my balcony and spotted the Guardian Weekly abandoned under the table, open at the crossword page. I nipped indoors for a
pencil and before my coffee was finished I had completed the ‘hard’ Sudoku, it
took about 8 minutes, probably a record for me. The crossword I finished even faster!
Where did that 'brain
power' come
from?
Was it
more sleep?
Was it
less physical activity? Less group work? No daily round-trip of 20 kilometres on my bike.
Was it thinking and writing in English? But how does that explain the numbers in
the Sudoku?
More power from the soul than the brain
I think
the fact that I whizzed through the crossword and the Sudoku this morning has more
to do with soul power than brain power.
With a
week behind me of writing about CE, breakfasting on the balcony, lunching in
the café, walking in the city, sorting art work and books, taking photographs,
designing posters, making necklaces, sleeping under the stars and reading I
think my soul has been well fed.
More
important, for most of the time that my soul was being fed my whole body was
functioning more or less in English. This is also good food for my soul as it is the
easiest language for me to live in.
Conductors feeding their souls all over the world
Many conductors
live and work in two, and perhaps like me, in three languages – English, Hungarian
and German are my three. It is not only the languages that we use, we are
immersed in different cultures.
I am
English. When I am on my own, I think I am more English than if I lived in England! I
have to switch to my living-in-Germany mode as soon as I step out of the door, even though often I have my English newspaper to read so I can slip in and out of both.
At work
my Englishness is abandoned except for when the children practise the English
that they learn at school or when we sing an English song. I am surrounded by the German
language and culture but, with eight Hungarian colleagues, also by Hungarian culture
and temperament.
Usually
we do not notice how exhausting this all is on top of our normal run-of-the-mill
daily CE lives, until it stops. We just do it!
One language for a change
I have recently realised that living in one language for a change has been rather good food for
my soul.
It is
hardly surprising that when a long break from work arrives that there are
conductors all over the world, with souls hungry to soak up some home culture
and language. Whether they whizz off to their homeland, friends and families,
or do as I have done and escape to the balcony, many of us need to soak up the
culture, speak the language, eat the food and do the things that come naturally, that enable us to
energise our souls.
Sometimes
having all the extra cultures and languages going on all at once I feel that my
body and soul are like a piece of electrical equipment left on standby, with energy
seeping away unnoticed, until the bill comes.
Soul power
So I am
sure that it was definitely soul power that enabled me to finish the crossword
and Sudoku this morning and it will be soul power that powers me though my work
in three languages and cultures until the next time I am able to do what comes
naturally and be English.
This week
was different to being on a proper holiday. I have been busy working, but just paper-working. Busy in English, in my home, taking it easy with a few bits of CE and
a bike-ride or two in between.
It can be all too easy to forget
It is
so easy to forget when conductors function extremely well in foreign lands just
how strenuous it often is not just doing what comes naturally every day, but
doing well what comes unnaturally too.
I wish
all my colleagues around the world lots of opportunity to feed their souls and
gain strength to solve the problems that come their way in whatever language,
culture or circumstances they find themselves in.
